Monday, July 26, 2004

how was work?

well, quota-wise, i only had 3 sales, but for a newbie in the realm of selling stuff, that's ok... need to improve, but it will come eventually.

otherwise, masaya naman ako. meeting new people. my batch took me under their protective wing, even if nahiwalay ako sa kanila, kasi farmed out ako to an existing team. aim ko naman eh to uplift my team now, but also cheer on my batch's teams. after all, boracay ang kitty incentive for teams.

sa team ko, tawag nila sa akin eh litlle tl, umaasta na kasing parang ganun. siguro sa exuberance na ito, but it provides some energy in otherwise dreary conditions.

nararamdaman ko ang pagiging totoo nila at hindi sila plastik. they joke around, but they know what is good for me. sort of baby nila ako. kyut, no?

anyway, i was so disappointed with the acquaintance party last saturday. ang kokonti ng pumunta. sumama ang loob ko. bad trip, ika nga. tapos, i felt sobrang out-of-place. another thing, super-late ang start. baka naman sabihin ng iba na i brought it up by my own undoing, but that is what i felt still.

anyway, my epixtar batchmates have become very special people in my life now. and i hope they stay with me and enjoy my company.

amen to that.

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Thursday, July 22, 2004

update lang...

today was my 2nd day of work in Epixtar, and i had so much excitement and tension over being employed. alam kong mahirap magbenta ng produkto, pero i'll give it my best shot. today nga, i got my first sale, hopefully a start to selling more to get to nice incentives, hehehe...

i wish to see my Atenean friends in Eastwood... pls, magpakita naman kayo.



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It was supposed to be an enjoyable day, that Monday. It was the last time that I would be going to Ateneo as an unemployed wimp, a bum, so to speak. Instead, what I got was pathetic.
 
What transpired during that day?
 
First, I went to school to see the people. I managed to teach some new Gabay members how to play bridge, and I taught Peps on going to Project 3. Then, as I awaited the others, Gep told me something, a thought previously unheard of since something of this sort happened four years ago; that I was being excluded from the snackout. I was shocked to hear something like that. I was mentally paralyzed, but I let them be. I allowed him to go there, but I reflected on this newfangled controversy in my head for the moment. To be honest, I tried to find some kind of excuse to allow the Education Formation committee to do such thing, but there is always one thing that crops up in my head. It is the fact that Kristel did not explain it to me in my face or a simple text message. It is frustrating and emotionally wrenching what she did. I would have understood, if she only told me, but she did not. I still await an explanation from her.
 
I don’t know what is wrong with her lately against me. It’s like a love-hate thing going on between us. Here is some advice to her right now: Deal with it. have some patience, and have a lot of it. You’ll have to deal with me more because of your co-angel responsibilities with Karlo, I am going to be a doting great-grandangel to RJ, James and Tantan. Get a grip.
 
Speaking of angels, I managed to meet some of my descendants in the past week. I feel that I have become too doting to RJ. I don’t know. I am cautious after what happened to Cris and to Rache. I love them so much. I managed to teach RJ how to play bridge. Yey! I plan on doing the same to James and the rest if I have time to do so. Too bad that I cannot participate in the Angel-Soul activities as an angel with my current alumnus status. But I’ll support my souls, grand, great-grand, and great-great-grand souls all the way. I have been like that, and I’ll always be like that forever.
 
Speaking of angels again, that Monday, I managed to see a smiling and happy Joyce. It feels good to see her wonderful smile brightening up my day, or anybody else’s for that matter. Her enthusiasm and zest inspires others. I wish I could say that as well to Kia and Michelle, the other Angels, but I am still uncomfortable being in close proximity with them (they’ll probably share that sentiment). I do not know how we could have some semblance of normalcy, but it’ll be similar to what Bea and I have right now. Anyway, Joyce and I, along with her cousins Elyoo and Jaya, played cards while distracting Rey and his blockmate from studying with much success, I think. It was fun when it lasted. It was something to take my mind from the exclusion issue minutes earlier. Joyce, thanks for always making me feel good. You do not know how much I value you as a person.
 
As for Bea, ayaw niyang mamatay (issue, hindi siya). Rammifications of what my feelings were at that time. Nothing I can do about it. I consider the issue as dead, but my emotions still tinge for her.
Other news, naman. Let me rant on the Iraq issue. I understand the situation of the President right now. She was caught between a rock and a hard place, a no-win situation for her. there’s nothing she can do about it, but this is the only way out. She does not want to antagonize the people who gave her a new mandate, a mandate still being questioned until now. I only have suggestions for our president. first, replace the DOLE head for that fiasco of releasing misinformation. Second, increase non-combatant involvement of Filipinos (medical staff, teachers, construction workers, etc.), while the evacuation of troops is ongoing. This would appease the US-led coalition who criticized the withdrawal. I only hope the people like Bill O’Reilly would understand our predicament.
 
We have won 2 games already in the UAAP, temporarily, as the only remaining unbeaten team left in the basketball season. FEU lost last Sunday against the Green Archers. I hope we could experiment against UE. Go team!
 
In the NBA, the Lakers break up their dynasty in taking in Odom, Butler, and Grant for Shaq, while losing Fish to Golden State. Denver takes in K-Mart, while Nash takes his hair to Phoenix. I agonized over Boozer’s coup d’etat against Cleveland. Can’t blame him, but it was in bad taste. He was a Duke guy to boot.
 
Nothing left to say, then.
 
By the way, Happy Birthday to Jing last Tuesday. May you be happy



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Saturday, July 17, 2004

early in the morning, i went with my mother on her weekly visit to the market. there, i spent some quiet time with her. i love her so much and that she is an inspiration and strength. i wish that kung sino yung mamahalain ko would have some, if not all, of the attributes that mom has.
 
kanina lang, i just went to see the ACIL people. medyo late nga lang ng konti, pero seeing them brings me delight. as would attending the Prepare of Gabay. as i enter a new stage in life, being in the workplace, i will be spending less time with these people i shared a part of my life with. i will always remember these people. they formed me into who i am and who i want to be.
 
kakasenti, tapos si bea, nandito two chairs away, but she left early. oh well, i wish a happy ending. which brings me to:
 
My Happy Ending

by Avril Lavigne

 
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?
Don't leave me hanging
In a city so dead held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all the memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

oh oh, oh oh, oh oh...



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Friday, July 16, 2004

winds of change.

i am now no longer a part of the unemployment line, because may trabaho na po ako! saan? sa isang call center. share ko lang yung mga karanasan ko roon.

bakit call center? unang-una, sabi ng nanay ko, try this place, at preferred nila roon eh mga may alam sa US geography at culture. pangalawa, bagay daw ako roon sabi ni sir leland. so i did apply, in early july.

during the next 2 weeks, i underwent training, going to the place at 1am, body clock adjustments, and all that, para lang matignan kung kaya ko ito. so far, so good.

as for people relationships, well, nothing much changed. ako pa rin ang ika-nga eh mascot. parang ganun na nga yung role ko ata rito sa kamunduhan. at least, we are all laughing and enjoying each other's company. there is bonding with each person in the batch (maliban lang sa 1, at hindi ako yun).

kasabay ng kakalogan eh merong ka-seryosohan. Batch 6 has been rocked by controversy, with the bitchy and a cellphone. but we managed to get through it, and survive.

kanina, we were finally certified. pagbalik namin sa wednesday ng umaga, contract signing and orientation na kami. sana maging masaya pa rin kami pagkatapos nito, once work comes in. sana sabay na rin yung credit card namin. makakabili na rin ako ng ateneo jersey, at ma-iisponsor ko ang snakawt ng mga magdalo.

sarap ng feeling.


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Sunday, July 11, 2004

maganda ang feeling... nanalo ang ateneo... feels so great...

75 - 72...


anyway, some more songs to feed my sentimental side... you see, i really love this person so much... kung alam niya lang...

THE PROMISE by When in Rome
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When you need a friend, don't look to a stranger,
You know in the end, I'll always be there.
But when you're in doubt, and when you're in danger,
Take a look all around, and I'll be there.
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
But if you'll wait around awhile, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you I will.
When your day is through, and so is your temper,
You know what to do, I'm gonna always be there.
Sometimes if I shout, it's not what's intended.
These words just come out, with no gripe to bear.
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
But if you'll wait around awhile, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you...
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you I will.
I gotta tell you, I gotta tell you, I need to tell you...
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
But if you'll wait around awhile, I'll make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you...
I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say.
I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be.
And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me,
I promise you, I promise you I will. I will. I will.

eto, isa pa...

I've Been Waiting For You Lyrics
Artist: Guys Next Door

yeahh..
Girl I've been searchin so long thru this world
trying to find someone who could be
what my picture of love was to me
and you came along

When I saw you I knew you were the one
the love that I've been dreamin of

I've been waitin for you (waitin for you)
all my life for somebody who (somebody who)
makes me feel the way I feel when I'm with you, baby
have you been waitin too
cuz I've been waitin for you

Girl I've been saving my love all this time
cuz I knew someday I would find
the one that i've loved for so long in my mind

From the moment that I looked in your eyes
I saw the girl I've loved all my life

I've been waitin for you (waitin for you)
all my life for somebody who (somebody who)
makes me feel the way I feel when I'm with you, baby
have you been waitin too
cause I've been waitin for you

Now that I've found you I just cant let u go (cant let you go)
no no no ohhh
oh there's just one thing I want you to kno

Spoken: girl I love you so...

I've been waitin for you
all my life waitin for you
I've been waitin for you
all my life waitin for you
when I saw you I knew you were the one
the love that I've been dreaming of

I've been waitin for you (waitin for you)
all my life for somebody who (somebody who)
makes me feel the way I feel when I'm with you, baby
have you been waitin too
cause I've been waitin for you

I've been waitin for you
all my life waitin for you
I've been waitin for you
all my life waitin for you
I've been waitin for you
all my life waitin for you
(fade out)




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Saturday, July 03, 2004

hinahanap ni joyce ata ito eh... besides, this song and "heaven knows" hold sentimental significance for me...

joyce, para sa iyo ito. maging masaya ka sa kanya...

Maybe This Time

Two old friends meet again
Wearin' older faces
And talk about the places they've been

Two old sweethearts who fell apart
Somewhere long ago
How are they to know
Someday they'd meet again
And have a need for more than reminiscin'

Maybe this time
It'll be lovin' they'll find
Maybe now they can be more than just friends
She's back in his life
And it feels so right
Maybe this time, love won't end

It's the same old feeling back again
It's the one that they had way back when
They were too young to know when love is real
But somehow, some things never change
And even time hasn't cooled the flame
It's burnin' even brighter than it did before
It got another chance, and if they take it...

Maybe this time
It'll be lovin' they'll find
Maybe now they can be more than just friends
She's back in his life
And it feels so right
Maybe this time, love won't end

She's smilin' like she used to smile way back then
She's feelin' like she used to feel way back when
They tried, but somethin' kept them
Waiting for this magic moment

Maybe this time
It'll be lovin' they'll find
Maybe now they can be more than just friends
She's back in his life
And it feels so right
Maybe this time...

Maybe this time
Maybe this time love won't end


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Thursday, July 01, 2004

something came into my mind when i read joyce's blog. here it is...

Heaven Knows - Rick Price

She's always on my mind
From the time I wake up 'til I close my eyes
She's everywhere I go
She's all I know

And though she's so far away
It just keeps gettin' stronger everyday
And even now she's gone
I'm still holding on
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breaking my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

My friends keep tellin' me
That if you really love her
You've gotta set her free
And if she returns in kind
I'll know she's mine
So tell me where do I start
'Cause it's breakin' my heart
Don't wanna let her go

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows

Why I live in despair
'Cause wide awake or dreaming
I know she's never there
And all this time I act so brave
I'm shaking inside
Why does it hurt me so

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray

Maybe my love will come back some day
Only heaven knows
And maybe our hearts will find a way
Only heaven knows
And all I can do is hope and pray
'Cause heaven knows
Heaven knows
Heaven knows


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I am John Paul Manahan.

I am a Cancer, born in the Year of the Dog, a day after the feast day of St. John the Baptist, in the month of the Pearl.

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