Sunday, October 31, 2004

happy halloween!!!!!!!!!!

twas a night to remember... a night i enjoyed.

text messages...
cellphone conversation...

atm madness...
traffic along marcos highway...
lrt2...
gateway mall...

mrt3...
ortigas...

galleria...

popeye's...

before sunset...

starbucks...

conversations all throughout...

a bus ride...

a mild rainshower...

it's all in the little things, the little things that make big things.

that make that night a wonder, all its own...

to you, thank you for showing me a great time.

10.30.04

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Friday, October 29, 2004

first things first....

after ng dramahan ko, things got better... parang maligaya ako, sort of... sure na things are not the same as before, but kailangang umeksena na at baka mas lumalala na ang sitwasyon... which brings me to...

my tl apologized to me last monday, and i did likewise on wednesday (wala siya noong martes). things have settled down a bit... and as some sort of blessing, i started to produce, and i mean produce. kaya eto, medyo naliligayahan...

ang motto ngayon: share the blessings and feel the good vibrations...

onto other things, the curse is reversed. hail the red sox... masama man ang loob ko, tanggap ko nman. they're good.

dami ring isyu sa opis. grabe na... haay...

btw, happy halloween!!!



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Sunday, October 24, 2004

took a day to compose myself just for this...

i was pulled from production on the last day of the week because i was unable to convert a lead into a sale. however, we were given a new publication to play with and it was a new one, meaning plenty of opportunities to make production. also, my teammates were not producing that much. so i went down to the 5th floor and thus started "re-training". when i went back up, to my shock, they managed to convert. (actually, i managed to get an advanced notice via text, but seeing it for yourself was another thing)

i was upset. maybe being upset was an understatment. i was frustrated. i could have gotten that production if i was dialing. come on, we were given a brand new publication. i only managed to dial it for around 30 minutes. give me a break.

at the end, i lost all control over myself.

i wept. i cried. first time in a long while. at work.

some of my batchmates managed to see what was going on. went over me to console me and soothe a wounded ego. i went to my old team leader to do likewise.

after that, i was invited to go to breakfast with them at Macau, at the Eastwood Cyberwalk. managed to cool my emotions down, from despair to laughter. afterwards gone on a journey with another team to cubao to do something, then went back and had "lunch" with a validator. these really helped me out big time.

thanks to the following people:

1. Team Puma, Mad Manx, and Sabertooth / Mandrins
2. April, Cheche, TJ, Mav, Gladys
3. Remy

i am rejuvenated. see you tomorrow at 9pm (mav, the following morning, hehe).

thinking about it, i felt that my emotional outburst was more on seeing you guys seeing my non-production. i felt that i was letting you, the people whom i consider special, down. i apologize for that. now that i know what needs to be done, it is time for me to take action.

batchmates / friends,

help me out. share your knowledge. so that i could put this to bed.

anyway, thanks again. you guys drive me on... i love you all.



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Thursday, October 21, 2004

hayy....

work today was probably the most demoralizing. alam mo yun, yung hindi mo alam kung ano ba talaga yung score, tapos talamak ang mga tsismis ukol sa isang bagay...

it was a bit depressing. pero, ang tanging pangontra eh mag-prodyus at mag-prodyus.

i keep on reflecting, pondering on the status i have with the team i am with. nararamdaman ko na parang hindi ako part doon. it's like they don't think of me well there. nakakadepress. nakakafrustrate. sometimes, i can't help but think that i brought it on to myself... depressing...



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Saturday, October 16, 2004

hello!

i managed to take advantage of an offer by my bestfriend to go shopping yesterday, kaya we did. nagawa rin niyang mapabili ako ng isang bag worth 400 pesos. grabe, no? astig talaga. what makes it special, it is really the first time in a long long while, if not the first time ever, na niyaya niya ako to do something with him. it is a special thing.

after that, managed to get some sleep, then went to work.managed to do decently well, but i feel i am so far away from being totally productive. sana mas maging productive ako. haay...

hopefully, magawa kong mag-take advantage ng sale... also, support ateneo team b at maging pasaway

eto na lang kaya, babush!!!!



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Wednesday, October 13, 2004

gusto ko lang masabi: good luck sa mga kumukuha ng finals ngayon. kaya ninyo yan.

i hope i get to fixed my lovelife for the nth time.

happy birthday abbie!!!



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Sunday, October 10, 2004

coincidence...

finally, i got my wish, somewhat.

that i am back in where i should have been in the first place, hopefully, it would be with my old team. after all, they appreciate me more as who i am.

also, pinapahalagahan naman nila ako. kaya, ipagdasal ninyo na makasama ko ulit kayo.

btw, thanks to cheche and mav for the moral support.

also, i had a gimik with a friend from the office. went to robinson's galleria. i was unable to watch a movie, but we talked, which is more important.

coincidences:

1. earthquakes preceded program transfers
2. i asked my officemate, what if may dumaang kasamahan sa office - i saw two other officemates...
3. i asked my officemate baka may makita akong kilalang atenista. i saw one.

gleng ko no...

quotes:

this is not a date, it's a gimik...

this is a date that is not... hehehe

thanks...


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Friday, October 08, 2004

ewan ko ba... this is probably one of my worst days i could have.

i had a double whammy, being warned for my non-production and by quality control.

grrrr... yes, i was frustrated. yes, it ruined my day (at least it happened after my "lunch break").

at least, they understand my frustrations. nakakaasar kasi at kakarampot na nga lang yung leads, tapos hindi man lang ako nakapag-contribute sa mga teammates ko.

i feel that i am letting everybody down. i am feeling the heat, the pressure.

it's a hard knock life...

nuff' said...

p.s. better restart my literary writings again, ditto with my gym.



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Sunday, October 03, 2004

as i ended my week, wala pa ring akong complete... but, wala naman akong magawa. sabi naman ng QA, i am doing fine, it's just that bad luck lang. hopefully, things will change with the new leads.

grabeng events... naaksidente asawa ng teammate ko saturday mawnin. kaya eto, mag-isa lang ako sa section namin kanina. my thoughts are with her. sabi naman nya, yung asawa niya is feeling better.

anyway, i met up with jesse, a member of DS Batch 2002. he talked with me for a while, commented on why we are at the call center industry (he is with etelecare). ako naman, sabi ko, i'll give this a go, then we'll see. sya naman, will go on to jvp. sabi pa niya, parang hindi naman nagagamit yung pagka-DS natin. i replied, that depends, baka naman merong CSR potential, baka doon makatulong.

speaking of this, i cannot believe that i am actually undergoing the "yuppie-zation" of me. i never thought about me being part of corporate society, but i would rebut, this is not the corporate society we thought of, and that i will never be brought down into their conventional norm. after all, i am who i am. i assert my own identity.

happy birthday po kay lola...



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Friday, October 01, 2004

This is a story of a ranting agent...

If you know, this week has been so harrowing as an agent. Wala pa akong ka-benta benta, wala akong ma-complete. Naasar ako sa sarili ko, but wala akong magawa.

To make things worse, the people in my team are not exactly the fun-loving bunch who would welcome such whimsicalities and eccentricities. There are some who enjoy my presence, but the team in general seems to be skeptical about me. Para bang may "ere" sila.

I understand the situation that I am in right now. There is pretty much nothing that I can do about it, but only doing what I have to do, that is convert the leads into completes or sales. For me, failure here would be tantamout to disappointing my old team leader, my current team leader, the program managers, and the company. I feel the pressure building.

Add to that my problematic romantic situation, things are getting haywire in my yuppiness.

In the end, I just miss my friends who get off work early.

Damn this, damn!

This ends the story of the ranting agent...

Buti na lang, si Che nandun, nabawasan yung angst ko.

Anyway, October na, kaya malapit na Pasko. (Labo, no?)



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