Wednesday, March 30, 2005

tama na yan... inuman na...

i was so frustrated talaga after the fiasco that was monday. kailangan ng sounding board sa mga hinaing at kabwisitan.

salamat kuya mackie, ate kamille, jo, elmer as pakikinig at pagbigay ng mga advice.

jomar, sana nagustuhan mo ang ginawa namin kahapon. watch over us. always.

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Monday, March 28, 2005

jomar cabeliza

it'll be almost one year, joms... things are different now than what you used to see and feel. sana maligaya ka sa kinaroroonan mo.

we'll be there tomorrow, to celebrate your life. hope you enjoy our presence there.

ciao!


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maybe i shouldn't have

masama loob ko..

i blew it. naasar ako. i feel that i am responsible for this, kaya eto, i am paying the price.

grrr....


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Sunday, March 27, 2005

that girl... part 2

kanina,

i went to my grandparents... kala ko kung ano yun... yun pala, baptismal party ng pinsan ng pinsan ko... aaliyah name nya.

things went about normally, then someone arrived.

her name was glecy. maputi she's slightly taller than me. binubuyo o binubugaw ata ako ng mga nandun sa kanya... she's ilang about it... i am fascinated with her... but ewan, para ilang ako... tapos parang ayaw nya...

haay...

a song reflective of my frustrated lovelife... something deserving of a blog post...

OVER AND OVER AGAIN

Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
And I can't keep
Picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad
Yeah, cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
I replay it
Over and over again
And I can't take it
I can't shake it, no

I can't wait to see you
Wanna see if you still got that
Look in your eye
That one you had for me
Before we said our goodbyes
And it's a shame that we
Gotta spend our time
Being mad about the same things
Over and over again
About the same thing
Over and over again

Oh but I think she's leaving on
And she's leaving here
And I don't know what else to do
(Can't go on not loving you)

Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
And I can't keep
Picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad
Yeah, cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
I replay it
Over and over again
And I can't take it
I can't shake it, no

I remember the day you left
I remember the last breath
You took right in front of me
When you said that you would leave
I was too damn stubborn to try to stop you
Or say anything
But I see clearly now
And this choice I made keeps
Playing in my head
Over and over again
It play in my head
Over and over again

Oh but I think she's leaving on
And she's leaving here
And I don't know what else to do
(Can't go on not loving you)

Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
And I can't keep
Picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad
Yeah, cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
I replay it
Over and over again
And I can't take it
I can't shake it, no

Now that I realize
That I'm going down
From all this pain you
Put me through
Everytime I close my eyes
I like it down
Oh, I can't go on not loving you

Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
And I can't keep
Picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad
Yeah, cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
I replay it
Over and over again
And I can't take it
I can't shake it, no

Cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
And I can't keep
Picturing you with him
And it hurts so bad
Yeah, cause it's all in my head
I think about it
Over and over again
I replay it
Over and over again
And I can't take it
I can't shake it, no


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that girl...

i posted a link about that girl...

what happened that put a tingle in my eye...

friday afternoon. we were playing volleyball, when...

a girl approached us and asked us if we could play volleyball. kidding aside, they joked about betting the cottage, wherein if we lose, we switch cottages... (aircon kami, sila kubo... :) we won... naturally, hehehe... i had fun... she was so lovely...

pagdating sa cottage, biglang the whole family, particularly my cousins an uncle were teasing me already... i already was so charmed by the girl. i played chess with her cousins. ilang ata yung girl sa akin. haay...

she was that inspiration... that special person... haaay... sarap kumanta ng videoke...

but before we left for home... i said goodbye to her... and asked her name....

she replied...

aubrey...

thus, the song...


AUBREY

And aubrey was her name,
A not so very ordinary girl or name.
But who's to blame?
For a love that wouldn't bloom
For the hearts that never played in tune.
Like a lovely melody that everyone can sing,
Take away the words that rhyme it doesn't mean a thing.

And aubrey was her name.
We triped the light and danced together to the moon,
But where was june.
No it never came around.
If it did it never made a sound,
Maybe I was absent or was listening to fast,
Catching all the words, but then the meaning going past,

But God I miss the girl,
And I'd go a thousand times around the world just to be
Closer to her than to me.

And aubrey was her name,
I never knew her, but I loved her just the same,
I loved her name.
Wish that I had found the way
And the reasons that would make her stay.
I have learned to lead a life apart from all the rest.
If I can't have the one I want, I'll do without the best.

But how I miss the girl
And I'd go a million times around the world just to say
She had been mine for a day.


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a beach to remember...

i spent thursday morning to saturday afternoon with my family on a trip to Sigayan Beach in San Juan, Batangas...

here is how the story goes... sayang wala akong photo proof...

we left early in the morn, but unfortunately, one of the vehicles in the convoy broke down before entering the slex, thus we had to tow it back home. since the drivers were a bit ticked about the car's breakdown, we took the scenic back route that took a while to get done. the route took us through along the laguna lake, passing by places like antipolo, cardona, morong (rizal); san pablo (mutya and jabie's hometown), pagsanjan, pakil, sta cruz (laguna); candelaria (lnel's neighborhood) and tiaong (quezon). on the way, we decided to have brunch in pagsanjan.

oh yeah, i was riding in an elf truck. imagine an elf truck running fast on a dusty and winding road. it was one wild ride. i was already burnt a bit even before i was in the beach... :)

syempre, habang nasa beach, eh di magliwaliw sa dagat. magtamisaw, magsaya.

habang nagsasaya, syempre one should reflect on things. i did my best trying to accomplish that. sana maging effective yun.

it was there that i learned, with my mom's objections, about the gambling aspects of pusoy and tong-its. overall, i lost 50 pesos. inclusive of that frustrating in-between card game. nakabili pa kasi ng load ang pinsan ko mula sa pustahan. grrr...

then things changed. all because of a volleyball game... we'll deal about that later.

after that, the videoke controbersya. nag-iingay daw kami eh kakasimula pa lang namin... good thing umalis yung mga iyon the morning after.

i sang to my heart's content that morning. people who have heard me sing can attest to my singing demeanor.

we went home saturday afternoon. if the route there was wild, the route home was wilder... imagine an elf truck running fast on the STAR and slex. you can visualize the wildness of the tarp flapping like a pterodactyl. sinermonan na nga ni lola ang mga pinsan ko about behavior while in the elf. to the fact that they are planning a baguio trip with the elf?... oh no... :)

wow... fun... sana kayo rin...


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Wednesday, March 23, 2005

gimmick-y

i was so bored kanina, kaya eto. i got myself to follow the urge to go out and gallivant sa glorietta.

so there, i managed to call a friend of mine, at kami'y naglibot doon. saya. managed even to take a "reserved" thingee from kenny rogers'. ang sama ko...

i had fun. sana sya ren. it was such a treat!

also, papunta akong batangas in a few hours from now. i would like to take this opportunity to reflect on some things, to mull over what i have to do, and clear my head (if possible) from its convoluted state.

i encourage those who read this blog to comment, then i'll reply to it based from my thoughts whilst at the beach.

wag kalimutan kung anong okasyong nagaganap sa kasalukuyan...


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roasting...

nag-enjoy ako sa roasting noong lunes. although merong mga kakulangan, understandable naman yung mga rationale.

i was also looking for someone as well, kaya lang. wala sya. ok lang kung umuwi sya.

after that (5am) i prepared myself for the accenture preparatory exam. parang i sleepwalked my way through... natutulog-tulog ako... good thing i kept myself awake and conscious long enough.


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Tuesday, March 22, 2005

manny pac-man lost... and an enjoyable bday trip.

bad news first:

talo si manny pacquiao. sayang, but from watching the match, morales was clearly the better man. sana may rematch... this is going to be better than the morales-barrera series.

wasak na rin brackets ko...

disappointed with wake, kansas, uconn. oh well, ganyan talaga sa ncaa tourney.

good news:

bday kahapon ng best friend ko. today, punta ako sa place nila para ma-claim niya transcript. i went there, tapos nagpasama sa kin pagkuha, tapos nag-pablowout sa pizza hut. even bought me a visor. bait niya talaga. i have known him for almost half of my life. tagal na naming friends... hope he remains happy.


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Friday, March 18, 2005

march madness kuno

i enjoy watching a spectacle like that of march madness. the college atmosphere. the action. the effort. musta bracket ko so far?

i erred on four games sa espn bracket ko.

ucla - texas tech (68 - 76)
creighton - west virginia (61 - 63)
utep - utah (54 - 60)
iowa - cincinnati (64 - 76)

the ones on the left were my picks.

sayang!

sa yahoo naman:

alabama - wisc-milwaukee (73 - 83)
lsu - uab (68 - 82)
creighton - west virginia (61 - 63)
utep - utah (54 - 60)
iowa - cincinnati (64 - 76)

mas marami sa yahoo...


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Wednesday, March 16, 2005

sayang, pero ok lang.

some might be wondering about my previous 2 posts... well, here's the story.

there is this job opening for a sportswriter/editor. it necessitated interest in US sports. naatract ako, kaya apply. tapos, reply naman sila, kelangan pala meron kang nagawang sports article, pero at least they gave me an opportunity. yun yung mga articles that i wrote and posted here. sabi nila, my style is not what they were looking for, kaya eto. tinanggihan ako. oh well. bawi na lang.

at least, yung sa ahead, finished my demo already. was a bit tense. but i gave it a go. sana ok.

by the way, graduation ng kapatid kong grade 6 sa friday. congrats to her. good luck sa high school. sana nakinig siya sa sinabi ni mommy sa kanya.

also, papunta ang family sa batangas sa mahal na araw. alis kami ng thursday. sino gusto ng pasalubong?

i plan on using it as a way of recharging and reflecting. sana kayo rin.


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Tuesday, March 15, 2005

Casting a Shadow: Baseball in 2005

foray number 2:

Casting a Shadow: Baseball in 2005
By John Paul Manahan

Much is abuzz in Major League Baseball, maybe the most since the labor strike in 1994. However, much of that buzz lies with the issue of steroids. Still, there are many things to look forward to the upcoming season, which starts on April 3.

1. Steroids, Steroids, Steroids. The steroids issue was pretty much settled with the new testing policy currently enforced during Spring Training and will be implemented at the start of the season. However, Jose Canseco wrote in his tell-all book that he did admit to using steroids when he was the Oakland Athletics. He also named other major league players like retired 1st Baseman Mark McGwire and Rafael Palmeiro as steroid users. The steroids controversy has recently moved into the realm of the House of Representatives, as Congress, in their inquiry to the steroids issue, has subpoenaed Canseco, McGwire, Palmeiro, Sammy Sosa, Frank Thomas, Curt Schilling, Jason Giambi, and MLB Commissioner Bud Selig to shed light onto the issue. However, only Canseco, Schilling, and Selig have agreed to appear in D.C.
2. Barry Bonds. He still remains to be the centerpiece of the steroids controversy, which will grow as he (703) chases Babe Ruth (714) and Hank Aaron (755) for the home run record. He is still on track in his recovery from elbow surgery. In Barry’s desire to win the World Series, the Giants acquired power-hitting outfielder Moises Alou (manager Felipe’s son) to protect Bonds, as well as getting catcher Mike Matheny, shortstop Omar Vizquel, and closer Armando Benitez.
3. Yankees – Red Sox. This rivalry still goes on even after the Red Sox extinguished the Curse of the Bambino and winning the World Series after 86 years. After allowing the Red Sox to come from behind 3-0 and win the ALCS, the Yankees reload with pitchers Randy Johnson, Jaret Wright, Carl Pavano, and 2nd Baseman Tony Womack. Boston got shortstop Edgar Renteria, and pitchers Matt Clement, Wade Miller and former Yankee David Wells, to make up for the losses of Pedro Martinez and Derek Lowe.
4. New York Mets. Speaking of Pedro, the Mets managed to snatch him away from the Red Sox with a 4-year deal. They also signed Carlos Beltran with a seven-year deal. They also made history by hiring Yankee bench coach Willie Randolph as the first African-American manager in New York. They also have young pitchers in Victor Zambrano and Kris Benson, and veteran Tom Glavine.
5. Washington Nationals. The team owned by Major League Baseball finally completed its move to become the Washington Nationals from the Montreal Expos. Manager Frank Robinson has said that they are looking forward to the upcoming season, adding talents like Esteban Loaiza, Jose Guillen, Vinny Castilla and Cristian Guzman to a lineup that has Livan Hernandez, Brad Wilkerson and Jose Vidro.
6. Los Angeles. The Anaheim Angels have decided to rename themselves this season as the Los Angeles Angels of Anaheim, much to the protests of the Anaheim local government. The defending American League West Champs, who are doing very well in Spring Training, have parted ways with 3rd Baseman Troy Glaus (Arizona), shortstop David Eckstein (Cardinals), and closer Troy Percival (Detroit), handing it to Dallas McPherson, free agent Orlando Cabrera (Boston), and Francisco “K-Rod” Rodriguez. They also signed pitcher Paul Byrd from Atlanta and outfielder Steve Finley. The Dodgers, on the other hand, not only lost Finley, but also 3rd Baseman Adrian Beltre (Mariners). Inspite of that, they managed to snatch 2nd Baseman Jeff Kent, shortstop Jose Valentin, outfielder J.D. Drew, and Lowe.
7. Chicago Cubs. All eyes are on their two stud pitchers: Mark Prior and Kerry Wood, as both are experiencing injury woes this early in Spring Training. Any chance of ending their Curse of the Billy Goat since 1908 rests on their pitching, as their offense took a hit with the departure of Alou and Sosa.
8. Other New Faces in New Places. The Oakland Athletics decided to retool, trading pitchers Mark Mulder to St. Louis and Tim Hudson to Atlanta, while getting catcher Jason Kendall and losing Damian Miller and Jermaine Dye. Other faces that are with new teams include names like Carlos Delgado (Florida), Ritchie Sexson (Seattle), Magglio Ordonez (Detroit), Shawn Green (Arizona); as well as pitchers like Kevin Millwood (Cleveland), El Duque Hernandez (White Sox), Eric Milton (Cincinnati) and Javier Vazquez (Arizona).
9. Given all the hype surrounding the season, the 2005 MLB season surely is one to watch out for, with intense competition all around.


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Monday, March 14, 2005

Madness in America

here is my first foray into sportswriting...

Madness in America
By John Paul Manahan

The month of March has been a special month to America, not just because it marks the start of Spring Training, or of teams in the midst of their stretch run for the NBA and NHL playoffs, and not just because it is the early part of the NASCAR season. March turns American society upside down, inside out with the NCAA Division I Men’s Collegiate Basketball Tournament, more widely known as the phenomenon that is “March Madness”. It is this “madness” that turns normal everyday people into armchair analysts, clairvoyants, and slaves (to office pools, to the television, and or radio). This phenomenon had its humble non-descript origins, to its monolithic status today.

How come it has become such an integral part of American society? In seeking answers, we go back to the 1960s. People became disillusioned with how events transpired (Kennedy assassination, Vietnam, Cold War) at the time. Thus, he started looking for an escape, searching for something that he could identify with, a kinship or a sense of belonging. Sports eventually became that escape, producing not only individual heroes, as well as national pride (in the case of the Olympics), but also institutions that represent their ideals, in this case being their alma mater. It glued the whole nation together as one, something that is now more relevant after what transpired on September 11.

Television, particularly the introduction of color, not only accelerated the escape, but also sowed the seeds of a united community pledging allegiance to whomever they please, enhancing viewer participation. This viewer participation then combined with their competitive nature led to the set-up of office pools and sports betting currently prevalent today.

With regards to NCAA Tournament, national prominence came into fore with the UCLA juggernaut during the mid-1960s until the mid-1970s. Coached by the legendary John Wooden, the Bruins ran off ten championships in a span of twelve years, including seven straight titles.

The Tourney then evolved into something more, something akin to a movie; providing pure thrills and suspense for the viewers, with storylines to boot. Take UTEP (then known as Texas Western), for example. The Miners in 1966, with five African-American starters, won against the University of Kentucky that was all-white starting lineup. Or who would forget the Larry Bird - Magic Johnson rivalry that had its foundations on the 1979 NCAA Championship Game between Bird’s Indiana State and Magic’s Michigan State? How about some Hardwood Classics like Arizona – Gonzaga (2003), Oklahoma State – St. Joseph's (PA) and Connecticut – Duke (2004)? Moreso with the nation's love affair with Cinderella squads like Valparaiso and Manhattan.

From its humble beginnings to its present-day status, the NCAA Men’s Basketball Tournament still is very much simplistic in its goal; to determine which is the number one team in the country, something its football counterpart seems to have some difficulty doing. Maybe it lies in proving who is the best by “walking the walk”. It is in that competitive spirit seen from the players, the coaching staff, the trainers, and most of all, the fans, which forms the essence that is the phenomenon called March Madness.

Come and join the Madness!


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Sunday, March 13, 2005

another good song lyric with bonus kwento

nakikinig ako ng evening love drive when i need to listen to something... narinig ko ito...

by the way, weird story...

naaksidente yung sinasakyan kong fx pauwi... yung lola nahulog sa likod ng fx. umandar yung sasakyan, pero hindi pa siyang handang bumaba, kaya iyon, medyo nabali ata yung kamay niya... pano kasi nagmamadali...

anyway, ang ganda ng song... reflects part of my emotional state...


ONCE IN A LIFETIME
Music and Lyrics: Top Suzara

When thinkin' bout you baby
And I don't know what to do,
All I think about is you
Seems everythin' around me,
Things are never understood,
The only sense when I'm with you

Oh I've heard it all before
Finding so called love,
Then you leave it behind,
But now I feel so sure,
I listen to my heart this time,
So I lay it on the line..

Chorus
I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime
And I know there's no way out,
Cause it's once in a lifetime.

I've always been so lonely,
No one ever needed a home,
There were nights was just so cold
Oh don't get me wrong I've been around,
And I resign myself to thinkin',
Just another start often told,

Oh I've heard it all before
Finding so called love,
Then you leave it behind,
But now I feel so sure,
I listen to my heart this time
With my heart before my mind

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime
And I know there's no way out,
Cause It's once In a lifetime

It not like I'm running out of time
Takin' everything is right
Just another thought I've found
Who'll make me change my mind

I know that what I've found is once in a lifetime..yeah
And I know there's no way out,
Cause it's once in a lifetime.


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phantom of the opera

i just can't help but reflect on watching the movie. ang ganda niya. no wonder hindi nagsasawa ang mga tao sa kapapanood nito sa broadway or west end.

where could my Christine Daae be? will i just be like the Phantom?

eto pala is one of the songs from the movie... ganda niya...



Phantom Of The Opera - All I Ask of You Lyrics

RAOUL

No more talk of darkness,
Forget these wide-eyed fears.
I'm here, nothing can harm you -
my words will warm and calm you.
Let me be your freedom,
let daylight dry - your tears.
I'm here, with you, beside you,
to guard you and to guide you . . .

CHRISTINE

Say you love me
every waking moment,
turn my head
with talk of summertime . . .
Say you need me
with you,
now and always . . .
promise me that all
you say is true -
that's all I ask of you . . .

RAOUL

Let me be your shelter,
let me be your light.
You're safe:
No-one will find you
your fears are far behind you . . .

CHRISTINE

All I want is freedom,
a world with no more night . . .
and you always beside me
to hold me and to hide me . . .

RAOUL

Then say you'll share with me one
love, one lifetime . . .
Iet me lead you from your solitude . . .
Say you need me with you
here, beside you . . .
anywhere you go,
let me go too - Christine,
that's all I ask of you . . .

CHRISTINE

Say you'll share with me one
love, one lifetime . . .
say the word and I will follow you . . .

BOTH

Share each day with me, each
night, each morning . . .

CHRISTINE

Say you love me . . .

RAOUL

You know I do . . .

BOTH

Love me - that's all I ask of you . . .
(They kiss)
Anywhere you go
let me go too . . .
Love me - that's all I ask of you . .

(CHRISTINE starts from her reverie)

CHRISTINE

I must go - they'll wonder where I am . . .
wait for me, Raoul!

RAOUL

Christine, I love you!

CHRISTINE

Order your fine horses!
Be with them at the door!

RAOUL

And soon you'll be beside me!

CHRISTINE

You'll guard me, and you'll guide me . . .
(They hurry off. The PHANTOM emerges from behind the statue)


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Saturday, March 12, 2005

reunions, gimmicks and mixed emotions

daming nangyari this weekend...

friday:

it was the Colayco farewell celebration. i felt like it was some kind of a eulogy to someone so dear, so special in one's life. during the "eulogical testimonials", i got a quote that best values what Colayco is to me:

The Colayco is a tree, a tree that we always go back to, a tree we are rooted along with"

the festivities also was an oppotunity to see old familiar faces:

Leeyaj, Xtf, Ella, PsyColayco, Tj, Cathy, Raffy, Ekay, Donna, Joel, Nel, Nicole, Andrea... etc...

Colayco for me is more than just a building and a basement. it is a part of my life, a part of my growth as a person, and then some...

You may no longer be there in the physical realm, but you will be in my spiritual and emotional realm. at kahit ano pa ang maging kahihinatnan ng Ateneo Student Learning Center (maging ano pa man ang pangalan nito), it will always and forever will be the Colayco of yore...

after the Colayco ceremonies, Cla, A.Kamille, Ava, Guiller, K.Mackie, Rollz, Adnan, and i moved to Something Fishy in the Eastwood Citywalk. The boyz, excluding Rollz, took a cab, habang nag-kotse ang natitira, at taya ko ang taxi. once we got there, we were joined by karen and mike, at gorged ourselves on the delicious morsels served there, with the expenses shouldered by ava (salamat dun...). habang umalis sila papunta kina pitt sa marikina, i stayed to visit my old office of Epixtar. managed to see old chums and good friends. went home and got to sleep medyo disappointed, dahil sa isang bagay na medyo malalim ang sakit sa damdamin. (something i would rather keep to myself for the moment.)

saturday:

originally, punta ako sa epixtar to visit some people, pero something from someone put a dampener on that one. i left the house after lunch, to visit the DSWS reunion bago man lang gibain ang beloved Colayco.

attendance included the following: Ate Pats, Phillip, Dax, Shella, Graciagirl, Cecille, Wande, Chris, Pia, Cary, Precy, Franssen, Sarah, Barcy, Teter, Nina, Malen, Diane... and so on...

nag-enjoy naman ako, being able to see some people that i have not been able to contact since they left. afterwards, the "old school" watched the "Phantom of the Opera" sa Megamall, while the "new school" gazed at the stars...

emotions

i noticed that ever-present and ominous sense of detachment kanina. parang nararamdaman ko yung sense of isolation. i feel the sense of loneliness at pag-iisa. naiintindihan ko naman, at people tend to be very much have that "look and disposition" on me. ganoon na yun before, and little if nothing has changed. at least, any sort of emotional frustration was tempered a bit. parang ganoon din noong friday, pero, i wasn't really keyed in on them. my thoughts then were pointed onto my old office.

when will this ever end? kakabit ko na ata eh... habambuhay bang pasanin ko ba ito?


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Thursday, March 10, 2005

farewell with a commiseration

it was only yesterday that i realized that it was the last day na pwedeng tumambay sa colayco. right now, i believe that unti-unting nililigpit na ang mga kagamitan mula sa colayco patungong mateo, Mateo Ricci (the temporary Colayco and future study hall) that is. isang taong kami roon. sana nga without delay.

i had a lot of memories being in its confines, enjoying its snugness and madness. i just love its ambiance and homely atmosphere. it'll be absolutely different during the next schoolyear.

yesterday, i also managed to watch our fabled women's basketball team (champions in dumaguete recently) beat the feu lady tamaraws 42-40.

i also spent the day pondering on some things on my mind. one thing in particular, struck me.

bakit na lang ako napapagtripan ng mga tao? in particular, involving other people, lalo na yung idinadawit sa magulo kong pamumuhay.

ok lang yung ibang mga joke na ipinapatungo sa akin. pero once nadadamay yung ibang tao, iba na yon. kasi nakakasakit sa iba iyon. nakakasakit sa kanila iyon at baka manlisik ang tingin niya o nila sa akin. ayoko namang magalit sila sa akin at mainis. worst of all, baka magbago sila ng pananaw o tingin about me.

gusto ko nang maayos ang reputasyon ko. i want to repair broken-down friendly relationships, but things like that put a dampener on such attempts to heal wounds.

i want to leave a good legacy. alam kong i am probably one of the most controversial figures around. naasar lang ako.

ayokong gumawa ng eksena like i used to do before.

paumanhin talaga. nagagalit lang ako sa sarili ko at pinababayaan ko lang ito. grr...

bakit ba ako torpe? things would have been different if only...

oh well...

i should look forward to the Colayco farewell thing on friday and the DSWS reunion on saturday.

c'est fini.


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Tuesday, March 08, 2005

podium at mcdo

i had a good day today, spending it with good company.

the afternoon, i spent with a former officemate. niyaya niya akong pumunta sa podium, the posh mall sa likod ng megamall. katapat lang kasi ng dati nyang office. she just resigned last week. she's so nice na inilibre nya ako ng food, even shared a pc sa netopia para mag-internet. i was very eager to see her again. i hope that she did as well.

the evening, i spent with some of my old org buddies. ang saya-saya nga eh, focused basically on solving the frigging rubix cube. i was so pleased spending time with people you really care about. sana nag-enjoy rin sila with me.

thoughts:

1. i was asked this question: paano kung niligawan mo yung girl na parang kulang yung pagmamahal? i responded na the fact na niligawan ng guy yung girl, eh ibig sabihin, may gusto sa iyo yung guy. however, it does not mean na kahit hindi ka niligawan ng guy yung girl, eh the guy does not like the girl. malay natin, meron palang nararamdaman yung guy sa girl, pero ndi nya niligawan.

2. paano ako nakakasurvive sa pagiging OP ko? i guess pakapalan ng mukha sometimes, pero it's more na you enjoy the atmosphere, the people, and their company. why deprive yourself of happiness when you can still tap it if you can. you know that meron ding hangganan ang mga ito, kaya maximize it if you can.

cla, ate kamille, kuya mackie, guiller: sana mas maraming mga pagkakataong ganito ang ating maranasan. i feel so good.


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Sunday, March 06, 2005

commisery

i have had a tough, rough week at home.

magigiba na ang colayco in a few weeks... i'll miss that building. that for sure. masaya mga alaala ko sa lugar na iyon.

masaya ako in the sense that i believe that i may have met that person in my life. sana nga siya na iyon.

starry-eyed ata ako now...


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Wednesday, March 02, 2005

Rodney Dangerfield

haay! i feel like him right now...

i don't get any respect.

epekto ito noong i watched "Let the Love Begin".

for more details, check the logbooks. otherwise, i feel ok. kaka-depress. then again, wala na akong magagawa.


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