Monday, August 29, 2005

what should have been?

musta post-party day ko?


went to the office to spend time with the night shifters (especially the support people). was there until around 1015, tapos left for the badoodles dinner, finally meeting people i have long wanted to meet and see how they are right now. doon kami sa super bowl of china (megastrip). afterwards, visited the coco exhibit at the megatrade hall.


i was faced with a choice: either go to the ateneo-ue game or go to the gabay tko that was held that day. i decided to go for the latter, which i now rue because of that f*****n guard. tapos, i got home the same time as if i would have after watching the ateneo-ue game. haaay.... then family members came to remember the death anniv of my lolo.


the following day, i realized that the kitchie nadal cd and vcd's that were in my room went missing. to the person who pilfered it, you are a dead man. then we have this brouhaha about the holiday snafu. grrrr.....


thank god a text from someone brought a smile onto my grumpy face.

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Saturday, August 27, 2005

the kitchie experience

i had to post this... kitchie, mahal na mahal na kita...


Same Ground


My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.
It's hard
leaving you that way when I never wanted to.


Self-denial
is a game so strange i never would've wanted
till there was you.


cause i have learned
that love is beyond what human can imagine,
the more it clears
the more i have to let you go.


[Chorus:]
that's why i don't understand
why i'm feeling so bad now
when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and lied.
now why am i the only one standing
stranded on the same ground?


My love,
Its been a long time since i cried
and left you out of the blue.
It's hard
leaving you that way when I never wanted to.


Self-denial is a game
so strange i never would've
wanted till there was you.


cause i've learned that love is a
word just thrown a little bit too much.
the best excuse to fill the infinite abyss
i never have to if all else fail


[Chorus:]
that's why i don't understand
why i'm feeling so bad now
when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and lied.
now why am i the only one standing
stranded on the same ground?


[Chorus:]
thats why i don't understand
why i'm feeling so bad now
when i know it was my idea.
i could've just denied the truth and lied.
now why am i the only one standing
stranded on the same ground?


if all else fail,
would you be there
to love me?
when all else fail,
would you be brave
to see right through me?


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the tale of 2 concerts.

i felt this deserved its own separate entry.


after my work at 2pm, i immediately went to ateneo. dumaan sa mateo, nagkita sa mga kakilala. afterwards, went to rustan's to help out in purchasing the prize for the bbb. then went on to the bbb. (didn't know who won, though)


finishing the bbb, went to the Gabay-sponsored concert. thought they would start promptly at 6pm, yun pala medyo mga 7 na nakapag-start. had to leave at 8, but deferred kasi orange and lemons performed. took a taxi to go to the rx anniversary concert @ dish abs-cbn.


while at the taxi, managed to listen in on barbie almalbis on the live Ateneo feed , who incidentally celebrated her birthday on that day. pagdating sa venue, haba ng pila, grabe. tagal ko pang stuck doon. grabe, as in. kala ko di na ako makakapasok. ggod thing i managed to get in. but only after i managed to listen to cueshe on the Ateneo feed, then stonefree @ dish.


inside, managed to hear on the radio the rest of the concert while sandwich and south border performed. buti na lang, kasi hale came after that and brought the house down.


then the really special part....


this is where i managed to find a free space near the stage area. there, i got to see barbie up close, where i got to take her picture (mobile phone wallpaper ko na ngayon) tapos, spongecola...katabi ko pa si gosh.... yeeeaaahhhh!!!! and lastly, kitchie nadal....


kitchie nadal...


patay na patay na ako sa kanya, tapos this happened...


after kitchie performed her 1st song, she asked for a brave volunteer to sing with her... walang nagvolunteer. nag-suggest si kitchie ng dj na kakanta (si francesca pa ata yun), wala rin... tumuloy pa rin... aba eto nangyari...


she saw me singing at the side of the stage. she then motions me to come near her and sing the chorus of same ground. promptly, i went and sang the chorus (with croaked voice and all)... wow... after singing it, balik ako sa lugar ko, i was in a state of stupor and euphoria (i actually almost cried). i was in heaven. grabe. i am so wow.... managed to get a picture of her, although wala nung moment na kumakanata ako with her watching.... nakakahiya nga na medyo off yung boses.


grabe mga dj ng rx.... ang gaganda talaga. especially sarah. wow. sanya, delamar, gelli, chinggay, danielle, fran are so beautiful. yeaaahhhhhhhh..... i am so smitten with them. haaay.... i am so lovin' it.


mahal na mahal ko na talaga... :p haaay.... :p


concert finished way past 1am. phew....


i dilly-dallied as to what should i have done, and i felt i did teh right thing, given what happened that day.


rx, u made my day. :D


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a look back at the past....

work has been medyo tedious, in fact, medyo nadidistract na minsan. parang tamad na ata ako. ewan ko ba. i am addressing it by being more focused and more attuned to the roles and responsibilites i have. things are ok so far.


minsan, when i look back, parang ayaw ko nang bitawan ang pagtatambay ko sa skul, even if i have graduated already. its just so fun seeing them with their exuberance and all that. i miss that. haaay...


sana maging masaya pa rin ako.


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Friday, August 26, 2005

friendster horoscope

bottom line:


Follow up with someone whom you've been wanting to get to know better.


in detail...


It's a good moment to keep social situations low-key -- rather than fighting your way through crowded parties and theaters, gather a few close friends who really get you and spend your time near water if possible. Emotional signs like yourself might go a step further and opt for solitude. This would be an opportune moment where you can commune with your soul and ask some big questions -- and get some big answers.


hmmm... omen of things later?


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Sunday, August 21, 2005

please please watch... (even if i'll leave early...)

Gabay
presents


A Concert for the Benefit of Gabay Scholarship Fund


Featuring Barbie Almalbis, Orange and Lemons, Cueshe, Stonefree, Mayonnaise and Spongecola


When: August 26,2005 (6:00pm-11:00pm)
Where: Highschool Covered Courts, ADMU


For tickets contact 0917-853-6328/0926-423-6674
or visit Gabay at Mateo Ricci ADMU


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monsterized

bagong addiction sa buhay trabaho. haay... sarap makinig sa rx... in fact, i won tickets sa rx anniversary concert.


kaya lang, it falls on the same day sa gabay concert. kaasar, pero wala naman akong magawa. wish them luck.


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Friday, August 12, 2005

serious matters

mga kutob.


i just feel that the welcome mat has been worn out. ika nga, mga hidwaan. good thing it is within the team bounds.


also, i got an email last week from the President Management Staff for an opening there. i was waiting for that noong mga april or may, kaya lang now lang dumating. in fact, i had my interview a few hours ago. i adjusted my sked today para ma-accomodate ang interbyu ko. i like the job, but paano naman ako sa current work ko. the job in the PMS was what i wanted two months ago, now what? paano kung alokan nila ako ng offer? what am i to do? be in the real world, or live what i dreamed of doing as a development studies student. what am i to do? sumasakit na ulo ko...


haay...


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gabirthday

birthday party ng gabay last saturday. slumber ang tema nito, plus sa dorm caf. (hmm....)


the party was great, tapos i was one of the judges. it was also awesome to see old faces, old hands... managed even to use my new toy, a Nokia 6610i.


i had dinner with them at shakey's that night, enjoyed it more than the basketball game that followed it.


the day before, i managed to ball with the newer members. true to form, i didn't do much offensively. my game was off. nahawa sa kabwisitan ko sa Xavier gym.


the week also saw me watching uaap games at araneta, we won both games. hope we do well in the games to follow.


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Tuesday, August 02, 2005

patama song sa akin....

LSS ko... gayang-gaya ko na ata... Para sa iyo rin ito K. Mackie.


Ewan Ko
Soapdish


Di mo sinabi
Pero may nagsabi
Gusto mo yata kasama ka palagi
Pero ewan ko, ewan ko


Ubos na ang pera sa kaka-lakwartsa
Gusto mo yata palagi kang kasama
Pero ewan ko, ewan ko


Napapansin mo na yata
Nakakahiya naman
Gusto lang naman kitang titigan


Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti hindi ko alam ang dahilan
Alam kong hindi pupuwedeng maging tayo
Pero minsan nag-iiba ang ikot ng,
Ang ikot ng mundo


Susmaryosep! Ang dila ay sumabit
Napahiya na
'Di na makalapit
Pero ewan ko, ewan ko


Pero napapansin mo na yata
Nakakahiya naman
Gusto lang naman kitang titigan


Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti hindi ko alam ang dahilan
Alam kong hindi pupuwedeng maging tayo
Pero minsan nag-iiba ang ikot ng,
Ang ikot ng mundo


Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti hindi ko alam ang dahilan
Napapalingon tuwing ika'y dumadaan
Napapangiti hindi ko alam ang dahilan
Alam kong hindi pupuwedeng maging tayo
Pero minsan nag-iiba ang ikot ng,
Ang ikot ng mundo


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Monday, August 01, 2005

converging the trail of thought

Updates from the personal front: after all, it has been 11 days since I last updated my blog.


July 22: Hale, Hale, more Hale: The band held a concert at the fountain area of Robinson’s Galleria. A few days before, I already bought 2 cd’s their debut album. After having them sign the inlay and the disc of both albums, I gave one of the albums to someone. Hope that person likes it. I just know it.


July 23: UAAP addiction: I spent the afternoon watching the men’s basketball tournament. I watched it live, even if Ateneo was not scheduled to play on that day. I was that hooked. After watching the game, the office played its own brand of basketball at the Xavier Gym in San Juan. Pulse-pounding, tiring, it sapped me of strength, but at least, it was fun.


Bonus: that was also the day where I finally snagged another phone. I now have 2 mobile numbers.


July 24: More UAAP addiction: Nagawa ko ring yayaing c Omar na manood ng Ateneo game sa Blue Eagle Gym, even though NU yung kalaban, ok lang. We’ll never know what could happen in a game. My treat. Bonus nga yung FEU-UST. Daming kyut sa USTe gallery. (sabi nga ni Omar, sa UST, doon makikita yung mga “morena” beauties.


July 27: Stag party: Ikakasal na yung isa sa mga ka-opisina ko, kaya nagpasiya ang grupo naming na mag-daos ng isang party para sa kanya. It was held at the house of one of my officemates, where I managed to abuse the DSL connection, hehe, as well as watched some DVD’s. grabe yung “Duda”, alam ko yung film na yun e kasama sa Film Festival for Gays and Lesbians that was held at the Gateway (sossy!). Napanood ko rin yung “Taxi” (Queen Latifah, Jimmy Fallon, Gisele the supermodel), as well as Robots (kaya lang bitin, biglang nag-hang). Merong inuman. TKO nga yung groom. Got home na around 2:30. Pagdating sa bahay, naroon na yung PC. After it seemed to be an eternity, it’s back up again. Unfortunately, burado ang laman ng hard disk ko. Bye bye mp3 collection! Bye bye documents ko!


July 28: Text message: Pinapupunta ako ng Edform sa kanilang miting. Yun pala, ako ang naging resource person para sa Slave Auction (punta kayo roon, saya yun!) hinang-hina pa ako from the party. Anyhow, managed to flaunt the phone sa mga Gabayano.


July 29: Fix-er Upper: with the assistance of an old friend, I decided to improve on the quality of the PC, by purchasing a new keyboard and an internet card. I also purchased a NBA Live 2005 cd. The not-so-good thing, the crack won’t install. Oh, I forgot, it was my officemate’s wedding. However, the guest list was very restricted. Even if it were not limited, I would have not come. I dunno, basta ganoon.


July 30: 2nd week for the pick-up games. Sa grupo namin, ako lang and dumating, but at least, I managed to play hard, even though I had back-to-back bad offensive nights. I know I played much better this week. Before that, I cheered the heck! We beat UP. Great game by JC “Baby Rocket” Intal. Doug, too. The next game saw a massacre by the UE Red Warriors on the hapless Adamson Soaring Falcons (more like Grounded, to me).


July 31: Pina-ayos ulet ang PC ko. Minor chinks addressed. Plus, finally, Internet access finally underway. I don’t have to spend that much outside. The bad thing, the technician told me that the this PC is a Pentium 2. opo, Pentium 2. I am still in the Dark Ages. Must upgrade. Also, had the NBA Live 2005 crack issue resolved, but still no avail. I still cannot copy the crack. Happy Ignatius’ Day!


So far, things are all right. Work is fine, although I have been getting sloppy lately in getting there by 6am. Personally, I still have to deal with personal demons and lovelife conundrums. Other than that, I am fine. The matters of the heart are almost killing me.


Haaay!


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